I haven’t written since chemotherapy one. I have finished four rounds of chemo and I have documented my journey on Youtube. YOUTUBE #MYCANCERJOURNEY It has been the hardest thing that I’ve had to go through in my life. Going through chemo is not just feeling a little sick. It is very physically and mentally challenging. I was told in the beginning that I might get some side effects. Well I got all the side effects! The only one I didn’t get is vomiting. Everything else from head to toe is still rolling in as I’m writing this.
From head to toe: Insomnia, migraines, head aches, hair loss, muscle twitches, eye leaking tears, nose leaking, nose sores, extreme dry skin, jaw pain, teeth pain, dry mouth, no taste, shoulder and neck pain, nausea, stomach pain, diarrhea, tiredness, loss of appetite, leg pain, muscle pain, bone pain, nail frailty, numbing of fingertips and toes, mental stress, chemo brain/fog brain, depression and no patience at all. Also very emotional.
I still have a year of medication to complete and radiation as well. At this point in my journey I am feeling stressed and overwhelmed and I need time to heal. I need more positivity and positive visualization. I need to start my yoga again and even meditation. I have so many questions floating in my head. I sometimes still can’t believe I have Cancer. That it can come back. I now feel stressed about food intake as well. I then get bombarded with people leaving me comments like don’t eat meat, sweets, white pasta, white bread, no potatoes, no dairy and no juice. It’s very overwhelming and stressful. I do understand their concerns but it feels like so much right now. I don’t even know where to start.
I will ask my doctor and oncologist all these questions and I’m thinking of getting involved in a small support group. I also need to get back into doing more artwork. Artwork really helps.
I want to thank you all your love, positivity and support. Thank you for all your prayers and love. I’m truly grateful. Your support has given me so much strength and hope. Thank you. As I continue this road of healing I look forward to sharing my journey with you. I would also like to say sorry if I repeat my self. I still have chemo brain and my eyes and concentration don’t work as well at the moment. Thank you and lots of love and positivity! God Bless!