Dear 2020…

You induced turbulence and waves of emotional grief. You were unkind and relentless. You made me stand still while things around me moved in a fast pace. You tired me out and ripped my heart out of my chest. With these challenges there are many lessons learned. I have no control of fate, love can be omnipotent and even though social distancing keeps people apart, friendship, strength, courage and hope are resilient.

The beginning of 2020 was very challenging as Government announced the Pandemic and along with that came the rules like isolation and distancing. Staying away from family and friends was very challenging. Then schools closed and we started online learning. We only travelled around Ontario and spent time in nature. I started questioning a lot of things and there are so many emotions, feelings and thoughts about this entire pandemic. I can’t put it into words because there are too many things to reflect on. I’m still processing the entire thing. I started journaling more, doing art, yoga, reading more and staying creative. In the air lingered uncertainty, worry and fear for the future.

The last time I blogged was on October 23, 2020. I wrote that my father was coming and that I was going to take care of him. The first week he was here it was the hardest week of my life. I won’t go into detail. I felt so crushed and broken by his condition. His symptoms didn’t seem right to me. I took him to the hospital. They did all the tests and the results showed cancer. He went into isolation at the Hospital because he just came from Greece and I didn’t see him for two or three weeks. He was then moved to a palliative care unit and I was able to spend every day with him. I can’t get into detail about his condition and what he went through. It is too hard for me to describe. My father passed away on Dec 8, 2020. I was with him holding his hand and he knew I was there with him. I told him I love him and told him he is an amazing father to me. I cry every day and replay the last hours with him in my head. I’m broken. My heart aches. I cry and miss him. I think about him everyday. As I am writing my mind stops and thinks “What just happened?” Everything feels like it happened so fast. I know I was not alone in that room with my father holding his hand, I felt my mother with me.

Thank you for your messages, flowers and prayers. Thank you all for being there for me.

Even though it was a turbulent road and a lot of emotional chaos, I will add that love and faith in God is what kept me going. The love that I eternally have for my father gave me strength and courage to get through the hard moments. I can’t reflect on a lot things that have happened in the past two months. A lot of things are a haze, I’m still mourning and my thoughts make me tired. My tears just pour out unexpectedly through the day. I will be okay. Knowing my father is not suffering anymore and he is with my mother gives me peace.

I am hopeful and I feel loved. I have courage and strength to move forward with my family. My mother and father would want the best for me and I must keep that in mind. I love them and think about them everyday. They are around me and a part of me. I can feel them stronger than ever. Love, strength courage and hope are within me and I am resilient.

Dear September…

My heart is open

Full of emotions

A little anxious and worried

Online learning

Everything is different

All around us

Nothing is the same anymore

Masks and distancing

Fear and Government

2020 is a real mess

I’m wondering who and why

Have we forgotten where this started and why?

Who’s to blame for the downfall of humanity?

Many lives lost

Many loose their jobs and homes

Is this all about control, money and power?

God I hate politics and the men that run this shit show.

Nothing will be the same anymore

Or maybe it will be okay?

This is affecting people in more than one way

Mental Health is a huge issue as well.

I truly pray and hope that things will be okay.
I’m trying to stay hopeful and positive…trying.

“I am a detective, I am a decipherer, and I am a finder of lost souls. My life is my own. And the future is up to us.” – Enola Holmes


The character Enola Holmes believes that our future is up to us. I don’t know why but this brings tears to my eyes. Is our future up to us? I hope we can be free again to travel, to go to places, to hug one another. I hope that we can one day get together again without having fear.


Travelled to Stratford Ontario

A busy little place full of commotion and life.

Social distancing in effect. Every shop had hand sanitizer and everyone wore masks.

I took these pictures of less crowded areas but the place was busy as can be.

Great book stores and the river is beautiful. It wasn’t quiet that’s for sure.


I kindly received beautiful *Gifted items in September.

Thank you to PIXI Beauty and AVON.CA

New Sateen Dreams Glimmershadows. They are so pretty and easy to use. FMG Glimmershadow Liquid eyeshadow Buildable Silky Cream Formula glides on effortlessly for a soft, subtle sheen that lasts all day. Water-resistant Crease/smudge-proof, Paraben/Phtalate sulphate free. 2ml $14.00 Avon.ca

Pixi Beauty eyeshadow palettes and blush quads are so stunning! The quads have two blushes, a bronzer and highlight. I love to mix them up and use a bit for eyeshadow sometime and even add the bronzer in the blush for a darker tone. No rules here. Freedom to mix and do what you like. I love these colours for Autumn. So beautiful!

Top left Hazelnut Haze has beautiful warm colours of cream, gold, neutral, bark, sage, bronze, russet, copper and deep.

Top Right Rosette Ray has pretty sweet pink colours like, French Rose, Ice, Glow, Plum, Mocha, Wine, Berry Mushroom, black Tulip.

Bottom Left Blush Honey Nectar has beautiful warm tones of Nectar, Honey, Syrup and Ambrosia.

Bottom Right is Sugar Honey that has a pop of Blossom, Sugar, Rosewood and Petal.

Thank you so much for reading my post. I have a few blog posts planned and scheduled for October. I hope you enjoy them. I truly hope that you have a beautiful Autumn. Thank you so much for all your support and love.

Hello September! 🍂 🍁 🍃

Dear Sunflower,

I thought you wouldn’t make it but here you are, opening up your petals and facing the sun. I admire your beauty and elegance.

Sunflower opened its petals
one day to another
facing the sun with love.

I’ve been in a creative mode. Trying to keep busy and creative this month. I’m trying to write as many posts that I can for October. It’s challenging but fun. I’ve been reading, writing and drawing. I’ve been enjoying writing in my journal with a new fountain pen! It’s a lovely gift from my husband and I love it so much. ❤️ We went on a couple of road trips in Ontario. First stop was in Perth.

Perth, Ontario 2020

Perth is a lovely little place and I recommend visiting in the Fall. 🍁 A cute little town with a beautiful park and river and shops. Also really cute Book Stores and a huge vintage shop. I only went for the day and I wish I had stayed for the weekend. A lovely place and the park is so stunning.

I also visited The Big Apple in Colborne Ontario and bought incredible pies and apple bread. We bought pecan pie, apple caramel crumble pie, apple maple pie and apple bread. So delicious! The best pies that I’ve ever tasted. I recommend you go first thing when they open because it gets very very busy at lunch.

I’ve also visited a couple of Vintage shops. Vintage shops make me happy. It’s like an adventure and traveling back in time. One vintage shop in Perth Ontario and the other in Colborne Ontario. If you walk into a small town vintage shop you can tell a lot about the History of the town. Very beautiful in my opinion. So many stories in each piece. In the Perth vintage shop I found this lovely candle stick holder. I was looking for something like this and there it was!

When I was in Colborne Ontario I visited a vintage shop and found a very old book that’s a childhood favourite: Heidi by Johanna Spyri. The cover of the book has fallen off and the book is very fragile. I opened up the book to a random page and this is where it landed…

Sometimes things happen for a reason. I believe it. ❤️ Everything in good time.

The book broke from the spine and broke in half to pg.112-113. The passage speaks to me in so many ways. ❤️ I believe that this is a sign from the Universe. Do you believe in Signs?

I won a bunch of books and popcorn last month. I’m so grateful! The popcorn 🍿 didn’t last long. 😋 Thank you to @bookbrunch and @eatableinc on Instagram for the lovely books and popcorn.

I kindly won the book Heatwave written by Kate Riordan from @ohthebooksshewillread & @GrandcentralPub. Also about 7 weeks ago I won The Lions Den written by Katherine St. John from Jennifer Bairos on IG @jennbairos. I would like to say a HUGE thank you to all these lovely book loving people for the wins. I’m truly blessed and lucky. Thank you.

I bought new reading glasses. They are my favourite. I like a big frame. They are simple and lovely. I do have to go back and have them adjust my prescription though. They made them too strong and I get really bad migraines.

Thank you all so much for reading my post. I hope you have a beautiful September and I wish you all the best. Positivity, kindness and love. God bless!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2020

Hello and Happy New Year! I hope you all had a lovely holiday! So far my January is eventful and I will let you know all about it in a post very soon. I made a recent VLOG if you like to have a look.

VLOG MAKEUP AND FEATURES

THANK YOU TO 

www.crate61.com Thank you for all the lovely soaps and lip balms. I won these lovely items on Instagram. If you like to follow me on IG please do so!

https://pixibeauty.co.uk  Thank you for the lovely GLOW Tonic 

https://teasparrow.com Thank you for the amazing tea

https://www.mightyleaf.ca for the delicious tea  

In the VLOG I’m Wearing the following: 

*Narciso Rodriguez

*Make Up For Ever Ultra Skin Booster

*Garnier SkinActive BB Cream Anti-Aging Moisturizer Light/Medium

*Too Faced Gingerbread Spiced Eye Shadow

*Bobbi Brown Lip Liner Pencil – COCOA

*Charlotte Tilbury Lasting Hot Lips Kim K W

*L’oreal Paris Voluminous Mascara 

*My Daughter’s Boots Sorel Boots

*My NEW Black Boots Sorel Tivoli IV Tall Boot Black 

PR SAMPLE 

Thank you so much AVON!

AVON LIVE OUT LOUD PERFUME 

TOP TEN SKINCARE 2019

I also wanted to add to this post my favourite skincare of 2019! I love skincare but you already know that if you follow me online. Here are my top 10 and I hope you enjoy the video as well.

PRODUCTS MENTIONED

*PIXI SKINTREATS GLOW TONIC

*CLARINS  FIRMING NUIT CREAM

*PIXI Skintreats Vitamin C Lotion

*Pixi Skintreats Vitam C Serum

*VICHY Liftactiv Retinol HA Advanced Concentrate

*FACE OIL Ane Glow in a bottle

NIVEA INTENSIVE NOURISHMENT 

*PALMER’S COCOA BUTTER Cream

*Palmer’s Coconut Oil Formula

Marcelle Eye Contour Gel-Cream Hydra C

I hope you enjoyed my favourite skincare products. I would love to know some of your favourite products and brands! Let me know what I MUST try.

Tomorrow I’ll have beauty favourites blog post and video coming your way. Please if you are new to my blog and Youtube Channel I would love your support by subscribing to my channel. It helps me out so much. Thank you and I hope your January is amazing so far.

Much love and happiness!

*Any products marked with ( * ) are PR Samples and sometimes affiliate links which means that I make a little money if you purchase through the link provided. That being said, all opinions expressed are 100% Honest and true.