Dear November and December you came in like two sisters who back each other up. Sometimes you get along and sometimes you don’t. You fight, you love and you forgive.

FORGIVENESS

I haven’t written or vlogged for a long time. I was taking care of my family and my dad. I was so busy and tired and then I go the flu. My body and mind was so stressed and tired. I feel I still haven’t fully recovered. My husband helped me so much. He did the laundry and cleaning and he was there for me. I’m so grateful. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

LOVE

I’ve been looking at pictures and got so emotional today. Time goes by so fast. My girls are growing so fast it’s scary.

I feel the winter blues have gotten to me and this is why I need to make some goals and plans for my self.

GOALS

I’m trying to be grateful for everything. I’m also trying to follow my heart and sometimes the dreams and my heart conflict with reality. If you know how to fix this let me know. I feel every time I try to follow my dreams and heart it fails on me. It never works out. I’m trying to be patient. I pray to God and ask for his help. I’m emotional and feel so many things. I hope things work out for me.

HOPEFUL

My energy is lower. By the time I go to bed I use to read and watch some Netflix but lately I’m so tired I go to sleep.

I’m going to be honest and say that I’m not happy in Toronto. This city doesn’t make me happy. The architecture and lifestyle doesn’t make me happy and full of joy. My body and heart are aching to live close to the ocean and nature. I feel like getting out of this city and never coming back. I’m sorry if it sounds negative. I love my house and the memories made. Sometimes we just have to follow our heart and inner call. My call is to get my family out of this crazy busy lifestyle. I want to be a part of a smaller community that is close to each other and to the sea. I don’t care how cold it gets and I don’t care how much snow the new place gets. I care about being close to nature.

THE CALL

My one goal for 2020 is to get my driving lessons completed and find a home that has a great community and school for my children. Must be close to the ocean. 🌊 That’s it. So with the help of the universe and God, may he guide us toward the right direction.

GUIDANCE

I managed to save some Christmas clips and photos through November and December. I hope you enjoy them. I love sharing them with you.

SHARE THE LOVE

My words for the two months were patience, vulnerability, courage and strength. I believe life sometimes gives us a lot of things to deal with. And no matter how sensitive we are as humans we need to allow our self to feel, to cry and to stand up for our selves. Also to support each other and surround each other with positive people. It’s vital to eliminate negative people. Sometimes situations are difficult and eliminating negative people is hard but ultimately it’s imperative for your self. Whether this takes one day or many months it’s important to surround your self with love and kindness.

This was my Christmas Bucket list. I did everything except visit the Christmas Market. Maybe next Christmas. I wish you all a very happy New Year! Have a beautiful and magical 2020!