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My Cancer Journey Chemo 1

It went smoothly at the hospital. I drank a lot of water and the support was amazing. The next day I went back to receive a shot called pegfilgrastim.

This shot causes white blood cells to form from the big bones. It causes soooo much pain. Omg the pain for two days was hell. I didn’t sleep for two nights. The 3rd and fourth day all the side effects started.

The side effects of my 1st chemo were atrocious and excruciating. I had nausea, diarrhea, headaches, bone pain, body aches and pains, no sleep, mouth dryness, indigestion, loss of taste, dry skin, chemo brain and tiredness. I also had pain in my throat and sores in my nose. I am now just starting to get a little energy back. The symptoms don’t all away right away.

Right now I have dry lips, taste is a little better but some things taste bitter to me and really salty. My hair is starting to fall more and the follicles are hurting. My stomach and nausea is better. I have my appetite back.

Right now as I’m getting ready to head into round two of chemo I’m praying that these symptoms don’t all flare up again. It’s truly the worst thing I’ve ever been through.

When going through the side effects I was crying and saying I can’t do this. But then I thought to my self this is temporary and I only have three more to go. I can do this. One day at a time.

Thank you Julie for the socks. @trysmallthings

I’m taking it one day at a time.

Thank you 🙏 for your comments and well wishes and support. It means so much to me.


30 Days Of Yoga Challenge At Home

Hello my lovely readers! I’ve decided to journey into a second round of yoga. It’s amazing to read my first challenge and see how far I’ve come. I’ve noticed a lot of changes from the first 30 day challenge to the second challenge. I skipped less days and I was actually looking forward to doing the classes. This second challenged was more of quieting the mind and extending the stretches. Breathing with the movements and working with the mental challenges. Overall I’m so proud and happy with my self. As I’m writing this I’m on my third challenge and moving onward with my journey. I’m happy, confident and feeling amazing. I hope you enjoy reading my yoga journey.

Thank you so much. 🙏 Namaste.


Thursday June 11, 2020

I was stiff in the beginning. My wrists hurt a bit. The sitting cross leg position still a challenge for me but I’m better than before. Hips and lower back have some issues. What I enjoyed with this class is to check in with your body and feel where issues are evident. These are the areas I would like to works on: Lower back and my core. Overall I’m feeling good and positive. My prior 30 day challenge has changed my mindset. If you check out the previous challenge I was struggling with making my self do the class. I forced my self to do it. This time around I actually look forward to doing the class. With this challenge I would like physical and mental strength. I would like my breath and energy to flow with my body and breath. Strengthen, lengthen and extend stretches. I would also like to let go of stress and embrace my self and my body.

Self love and confidence

Strength and courage 

Letting go of stress


Friday June 12, 2020

Is it normal to cry during yoga? Connected to my breathing and movement today. Strengthening core and focusing on intentions. Focusing on how I feel. Cried during deep breathing. I feel so good. I look forward to each day of yoga class. Great stretches and lengthening. Strengthening and focus. My mind drifted about 3 times but I refocused. The class helped me so much today.
Thank you. 🙏


Day 3

Saturday June 13, 2020

I was tired today because I did some yard work but I’m so happy I did day 3 of yoga class. Feeling really good and strong. I’m not in pain. I feel great in poses and extending my stretches. I’m holding on to positions longer without toppling over. I’m going with the flow of movement and breath. Really happy. I feel so full of energy and happiness when I’m doing yoga. Strong. I would like to work on my mind set more. And my concentration is much better. My mind drifted two times only. 

(Skipped Sunday)

Day 4

Monday June 15, 2020


Today’s yoga class felt fast for some reason. Awakened parts of the body that need attention. I cried at the beginning. As I can see my deep breathing is connected to my emotions and my core. I definitely have been stressed by the changes in our world. Covid  has stressed me out. Also doing school work with my girls can be overwhelming. I’m tired as well and I’m cooking, cleaning and homework with the girls. #Momlife is real and hard. After all this is over I need a vacation. Today’s yoga class was releasing a lot of my stress. It was really great. 

Day 5

Tuesday June 16, 2020

Today I felt like I ran for 30 min! A great class! Breathing, strengthening and connection to movement and breath. My wrists hurt a little, my knee is doing a little better. I overworked it a bit. Overall I’m feeling great and I was looking forward to the class today. I thoroughly enjoyed the class. 

Day 6

Wednesday June 17, 2020

WOWZA working the core. Abs! Soooo good. Hard work but so good. 

Day 7

Thursday June 18, 2020 

My Abs still hurt from yesterday. Today’s class had great stretches. I enjoyed it. I’m glad It was a stretching class because my wrists needed a break. Fantastic and now I’m going for a walk! Feeling great!

Day 8

Friday June 19, 2020


Breathe in Love and breathe out ❤️ love.

At first this was hard as I thought about negative people. I stretched my mind and my focus. I focused on my love for my husband and girls. This class was very soothing and relaxing. Breathing & gentle stretching really calming class. I enjoyed every minute. 

Day 9

Saturday June 20, 2020

Worked up a sweat and felt my heart rate go up. It was challenging, I felt areas that are weak and that I would like to strengthen. I had mind chatter and moved location for my yoga class today. I was looking around thinking too many things. It’s okay though. I continued and tried to focus on the breath. I noticed  when things get difficult I want to back away or stop. I didn’t though. I finished the class.

Day 10

Sunday June 21, 2020

I am happy I did the class! “The mat is your mirror” The instructor shared this message and it made so much sense to me. So powerful. I didn’t want to do today’s class to be honest. Feeling down and stuck. Thinking too much about COVID and all the things that are happening around the world. Thinking about what will I do all summer with my girls. I’m always stressing and worried. After Yoga I feel so happy & well. After yoga all my problems are no longer there. Today’s class was a standing up class. Finding strength between the feet and connection to the ground and earth. I enjoyed it so much. 

Namaste & Thank you

Day 11

Monday June 22, 2020

Oh today’s class was amazing! Sweat! Sweat! Strength! Really feel stronger. I can’t believe that yoga can make you sweat a lot. So good and I’m feeling strong. I always look forward to doing my yoga. 

Day 12

Tuesday June 23, 2020

Stretches in today’s class were fantastic. Great cleaning of the mind as well. The chatter in my head was not as strong today. I did cry. I’m also trying to find my authentic self. Material things are not as important and should not consume my life. I’m also a bit confused and I don’t want to live in Toronto anymore. Nature calls me. 

Day 13

Wednesday June 24, 2020

Feeling so Good!

Extending stretches and strengthening. My wrist hurt a bit. Struggling a little bit mentally and emotionally but yoga helped me so much today. Feeling stronger and breathing deep.

Flowing Energy like the ocean through me.

Day 14

Thursday June 25, 2020

Great Stretches for the hips today and again got emotional. All is good. Everything feels great. I look forward to doing more yoga. I can stretch in ways that I wasn’t able before. I also feel stronger. I would like to help my mental state be stronger and better. Toxic out & Let love in. 

Thank you!

Day 15

Friday June 26, 2020

Today was a much needed yoga class. I wasn’t going to do today’s class but I am so grateful that I did it. I’m becoming more flexible and strong. Some chatter is still happening in my head but I try really hard to focus on my breathing and that brings me back to my core and the focus shifts back to my body. Feeling great overall. I really need to start meditation though. Life’s stresses and frustrations are getting to my mind. 

Day 16

Saturday June 27, 2020

Stretching the body feels so amazing!!!

Sunday Off

Day 17

Monday June 29, 2020

I did my yoga and worked on breathing. I also never knew how it can hurt sitting in a cross leg position for a long time. My lower back hurt. I’ve always had a weak lower back. Yesterday I did some gardening and my arms hurt so much. Day 17 was really great and I enjoyed it. 

Day 18

Tuesday June 30, 2020


I didn’t feel like doing yoga but I’m happy I did it. I’m struggling emotionally. I don’t feel I’m the best I can be. I don’t feel fully complete in a way. I need quiet and nature and ocean. I’m emotional because of hormones but I am also not enjoying living in the city. Too much noise, cars and pollution. I want to be the best of me that I can be. I want the best for my family. The only way I can do this is with connection to a more natural calm way of living. City living is not for me. I am grateful for yoga because it is helping me figure things out inside of me. This is what is going on in my head. Yoga was very challenging today. I would like to do today’s yoga class again because it was such a great challenge. 

Day 19

Wednesday July 1, 2020

A very challenging class today. My heart rate was up and great balancing. Sweating nicely. I really enjoyed it. It really helped my mental state. I would like to dive into more yoga. I’m loving the change in the body and mind. 

Day 20

Thursday July 2, 2020

Yoga was great. Working on stillness today. Felt really great! I feel like I should do more but today’s class I learned to be still with what I have. It doesn’t have to be strenuous and a lot. 

Skipped July 3, 2020

Day 21

Saturday July 4, 2020

Great breathing and stretching. Great release of stress and anxiety. Really lovely class. I really enjoyed it. My neck and shoulders were a bit stiff. After the class all that tightness has gone and I’m more relaxed and pain free. 

Day 22

Sunday July 5, 2020

I was an emotional wreck today. Very low and down. I felt so sad. I don’t know why. I left yoga class to the end of the day. It was great as usual. I always enjoy the class. I would like to do 2 classes a day. One in the morning and the other in the afternoon. My mental state is not so well. I feel happy one minute and sad the next. I hate COVID. It has caused to much damage to the body mind and soul of the world. 🌎

Day 23

Monday July 6, 2020

“Where the mind goes energy flows.” – Yoga with Adriene

Feeling soooo much better than yesterday. 

Balance and energy

Stregth and balance

Feeling good and great breathing and energy today. 

Day 24

Tuesday July 7, 2020

I enjoyed yoga today. Heart rate got up and great strengthening and stretching. Also lengthening and core work. Flow and movement and breath was working all together. Even though I didn’t feel like doing yoga today I’m so happy I did it. 

Day 25

Wednesday July 8, 2020

Relaxing yoga, focus on the breathing and letting go of stress and tension. Today I was seeking yoga for my well being. I really have positive feelings. 

Day 26

Thursday July 9, 2020

Today’s class was challenging. Balance, strength and endurance. Very energetic class today. Feeling good but a little tired. In a positive way. No mind chatter and my concentrations was really positive and connected. Very strong connection to my breathing with movements. 

Skipped Friday

Day 27

Saturday July 11, 2020

WOW! A great yoga class. Challenging heart rate is up. Sweating and feeling great! I wasn’t  feeling good yesterday. I am better today. A bit tired at the end of this class. I look forward to the next 30 days. 

Skipped Sunday

Day 28

Monday July 13, 2020

Feeling great! Stretching, breathing feeling stronger. 

Day 29

Tuesday July 14, 2020

I forgot to log my experience. Oops! We are all human. 😁 

Day 30!

Wednesday July 15, 2020

A very long class that made me sweat and tested my endurance and strength. I was pleasantly surprised that my strength is great and my endurance was tested. I stopped a couple of times to breathe a bit. I can’t believe I‘ve complete a second round of 30 days of yoga!! WOO HOO!

YAY! I’m soooo proud of my self! I feel happy and stronger than before. I’m more flexible and my mind chatter is almost gone whilst doing yoga. I feel really great and healthier. A little more stress free and relaxed. I’m very happy and exited  and I look forward to another challenge. Looking forward to getting better at every aspect that yoga has to offer.

Thank you so much for reading my journey. 

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30 Days of Yoga During Lockdown

30 Days of Yoga Challenge

This is my first time doing yoga. I wanted to do this challenge to keep my body and mind healthy during the lockdown. It was very challenging and I am so happy I completed this yoga challenge. I think I attempted a class before but gave up too easy. So here is my journey. I hope you enjoy and thank you for reading my yoga journal.

Day 1

April 2020

Feeling pain in ribcage area. Shoulder pain and neck pain. More tight than pain. Feeling tired after completing day 1. My palms hurt as well. My mind kept wondering and I wanted it to end. Feeling proud of my accomplishment. I had a craving for protein shake right after. Feeling good and positive. 

Day 2

Feeling sore from yesterday but stronger. More sweat involved and heart rate when up. I feel more energy. I feel good.

Day 3

I skipped a day but I continue today. I was sore yesterday. Today was great. Feeling stronger and my balance and strength are getting better. I also feel good. I look forward to getting better with flexibility and strengthening my muscles. I am also enjoying opening up parts of the body for oxygen and breath. I also enjoy the yoga poses. 

Day 4

April 26, 2020

I skipped another day but continue today. I skipped yesterday because it was my birthday. Today’s yoga was lower back focus. It was really great and my heart rate went up. I sweated  and felt really great. My body is feeling stronger. I feel good and happy to complete day 4.

Day 5

April 28, 2020

Good Morning! I decided to go yoga in the morning. I got the heart rate up and sweated and was using my breath more today. Feeling so good and actually I am feeling more than good I’m feeling great! This morning I had neck and shoulder stiffness but after yoga I feel better. My whole body feels so warmed up and ready to face the day. Time for a protein shake! 

Day 6

Abs! Not my favourite but I did most of it. Might go on the treadmill today. *didn’t go on the treadmill. 

Day 7 

May 1st, 2020

Wowza! Today was a workout! I sweated and my heart rate was up. In the beginning my mind was on a checklist of things I had to do for the day but half way through my mind was focusing on my breath and being in the moment. Feeling the muscles working on my arms and feeling the heart beating is so amazing. I am feeling truly amazing. Now that I am writing this I’m crying because it feels also good and connected to the body, breath and heart. I feel so strong and good. Only 7 days and I feel so much stronger then the first day. I am so proud of my self. 


In the beginning I would do the yoga in the afternoon and I’ve changed it to the morning. It feels better this way. I’m listening to my body and I’m very pleased that I focus on “ME” I won’t lie the voice in side my head in the beginning said “I don’t want and I don’t feel like doing this” I switched this mind set to “it feels amazing during and after the lesson”. I’m working on enjoying the process more and not thinking only about the end. 


Day 8

May 3rd, 2020

During this session of meditative yoga I cried. My mind chatter was so much. At the beginning I thought about everything I needed to do for the day. By the middle of the yoga I was connected to breath and body. My mind was in sink with breath and body and in the moment. By the end of today’s session I was so relaxed and calm. I skipped yesterday because my abs were still hurting and I didn’t like doing it to be honest. I enjoy one day on and one dy off. I’m enjoying doing yoga in the mornings and I open the window and hear the birds as well. It’s so peaceful. 

Day 9 

I skipped a day. Sweat sweat sweat! I didn’t want to do yoga today. I was dreading it. But I forced my self to do it. I am really proud of my self. I worked on some balance today. I really like the teacher that teaches this yoga. There are some things about my body that get in the way of my yoga experience that I am finding annoying and want to work on. My belly fat and the baby pouch right bellow the belly. So irritating for me. Anyhow it’s great to figure somethings out as I’m going through this journey. 

Day 10

10 Minute video today. I skipped yesterday. I’ve been doing one day on and one day off. I am feeling good. Focused on flow and breath. I bought a new yoga mat from amazon. I like it because it helps cushion my knees and hands. I like the mat. So far it’s great! 

Day 11

Feeling good today. I enjoyed the class. By the end of the class I could feel the oxygen and blood flow through my entire body. My breath and heart as well. The only thing I didn’t like is me in biking shorts! I’m sticking to tights. 

Day 12

Happy Mother’s Day! Today yoga felt short. Worked on spine and balance. I’m enjoying the challenge so much. Feeling good. I would like to do more cardio. This is a good sign. 

Day 13

May 11th, 2020

A great yoga class today. It felt great to stretch and strengthen. Simple and short and to the point. Feeling the back and lower back. Opening up and strengthening. I’m also seeing and feeling my posture changing and alignment is better. My stomach area/core feels better as well. 

Day 14

May 13, 2020

I enjoyed today’s yoga. I didn’t sweat as much but great stretches and breathing. I added stretches for the abs as well. Feeling good. I would like to focus more and concentrate on each movement and take my time. 

Day 15

May 15th, 2020

Worked up a sweat! Half moon pose was difficult but I leaned on furniture to help me focus and work of my balance. I enjoyed today. Breathing was fantastic and heart was pumping. Blood pumping all over the body. The half moon positions work on strength and balance. My legs were shaking but feeling good. 

Day 16

May 19th, 2020

I missed too many days in between but I’m back at it. Day 16. My mind wasn’t into it. I didn’t want to do today’s class. I was frustrated with my self. Half way into the yoga my feelings changed. I started feeling good and I also did side planks! SO COOL! I am very proud of my self for getting through my mental block and doing it. YAS! GO GIRL!

Day 17

May 21, 2020

The stretching felt really great today. My body felt like it needed a great stretch. My body feels stronger. I also enjoy the heart rate going up and the connection to breathing. I loved today’s focus on the alignment of the spine and back. Feeling good. I would like to be more flexible and I know this will come in time. 

Day 18 & 19

Day 18 I forgot to document my yoga. 

Day 19 the focus was on breathing, stretching and strengthening. Movement with breath. A balance of both. Not too heavy but very good class. I did this in the morning. I will be doing one more class in the afternoon with my hubby hopefully. I feel good to do 2 classes in one day. Lets see how this goes. 

*Class with hubby was funny. He was making me laugh through the entire thing. Lol 😝 not doing that again! lol

Day 20

May 27th, 2020

Today felt really great. I worked up a sweat. Worked on movement, breathing and strength. I was able to concentrate more and be in the moment.


I am finding I am stronger and my body is firming up in areas like arms, legs and stomach. 

Day 21

May 28th, 2020

Today I worked on strength and breathing. Worked on alignment and being aware of the body. I was more in the moment than any other day. Overall my body enjoyed the stretching and. Breathing. Deep breathing and very grateful. 

Day 22

May 31st, 2020

I would like this week coming up to be more consistent. Today I didn’t want to do yoga. I am feeling down. This COVID Lockdown is getting to me. I’m trying to stay positive. It is so hard. That being said today for yoga I was very impressed with all the poses and strength. I would like to do yoga everyday this week and stop missing every other day. Feeling some leg, wrist and knee pain. I will be fine and I am all good. 

Day 23

June 1st, 2020

I didn’t feel like doing yoga today but I actually enjoyed it. Working more of the arms today. I’m going to try and do yoga everyday this week. 

Day 24

June 2nd, 2020

Working the hips and stretches for the hips. Short yoga class today. 

Day 25

June 3rd, 2020

Today I wanted to do yoga. 

Yes you read that right. I usually say I don’t want to do yoga and then I force my self to do the yoga. At this point on day 24 I’m WANTING to do more yoga. I enjoy every second of stretching and breathing. I look forward to this for the rest of my life. I really love yoga and I really feel so much stronger than the beginning. Yoga has strengthen by body and mind in so many ways. I am so happy and I really want to increase my fitness levels. I would never say that prior to starting this journey. I feel very good and happy. 

Day 26 & 27

June 5th, 2020

I did 2 classes today. I felt like I could go for it. I feel good and stronger. I would like to work with more balance and extend my stretches more. I also would like to increase yoga to 2 times daily. Observations: my belly gets in the way of doing some stretches but it is getting better than before. I feel good, positive and refreshed. 

Day 28

June 6th, 2020

Heart rate up! Sweat! Sooooo good! Feeling great! A little pain in the wrists. Worked the core as well. Working the breathing with movement. Flow of movement with breathing. Feels really great. I feel less stressed. When I do yoga I feel more release of tensions and stress. I can see why people go to yoga retreats. It must be so stress free. Not sure if I will do another class today. Feeling great. 

Day 29

June 8th, 2020

I can’t believe I am on day 29! Feeling great, strong and connected to my breath and body. I feel amazing when I am stretching and embrace everything about each movement. I feel good while I’m doing the yoga. I no longer have the feeling of not wanting to do it. I can’t wait to continue this journey and do another 30 days!

Day 30!!!!

June 9th 2020

I cried! Today’s class made me cry a little. It was a little too fast paced for me but I really enjoyed it. I have some arm, neck and back tightness but I’m going to continue tomorrow with another 30 days. Since I started this challenge I feel more connected with my body and breath. I feel stronger as well. I feel this is only the beginning of my journey. This is the first time ever doing yoga and I love it so much. 

I feel this challenge is not about weight loss for me. My relationship with yoga is about my body alinement, breathing, heart, strength and being present in space and time. It’s about stretching and releasing tension and strengthening the mind and body. This journey is about letting go of stress and anxiety. It’s about getting to know my body better and giving my body the care and love. I am really happy with this 30 day challenge and proud of my self. I look forward to the next 30 days. I will continue to share my journey with you. 

Before starting this challenge I was in a lot of pain and I was weak. I did not have any muscle and sometimes I would move and pull parts of my body without even doing anything. It really scared me. I can now tell you that I am no longer like that! I feel so strong in my legs, arms back and wrists. I can sit cross legged without pain and my arms don’t hurt when I do downward dog position. My lower back doesn’t have pain anymore. I can also tell you that sleeping has become so much better. 

 I would like to work more on extending my stretches and lengthening my body. I would like to learn new positions and also revisit the ones I just learned. I would like to be more flexible and work my core more. I would like to release stress and tension. I look forward to connecting my breathing and movement more. I am so proud of my self. Yoga has helped me so much. My body now craves stretches and I have found enjoyment in each movement and flow. Yes there were times when I didn’t want to do the class but I forced my self to do it. I am so happy I did. I skipped days but continued the very next day and have completed the 30 days. I am so proud of my self. 

Thank you so much to Adriene Mishler. Her videos have inspired me and helped me so much. I look forward to the next 30 day challenge.

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Happy May! Leuchtturm1917 Notebooks

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How Does Breast Augmentation Fit Into a Mom’s Life?

*Guest Post

How Does Breast Augmentation Fit Into a Mom’s Life?

Motherhood is a beautiful thing. I’m so grateful to be living the mommy life. But while the process of becoming a mom made a huge positive impact on me as a whole, it definitely changed my body in ways that I hadn’t expected.

I loved my body before I had a baby and I love my body now, but I do miss some of the youthfulness and confidence I felt pre-pregnancy. 

Many moms consider breast augmentation to help get back to their pre-baby body and reignite their confidence. Undergoing a procedure is a big decision, though, and you may not be sure if the process will realistically fit into your life and all your body’s day to day mom duties.

I’ve heard some of my fellow moms mention the same concerns: How long would they be out of commission? What results would they get? How would life be different after?

I did some digging of my own, and here’s what I learned. 

What are the options?

Some of the most popular types of augmentation are silicone implants, saline implants and fat grafting. Silicone implants come in a teardrop (anatomical) or round shape; saline implants are silicone shells that are filled with saltwater; and fat grafting is a subtler option that uses fat taken from another part of your body. The option you choose depends on your personal preference, body type, and the look you’re going for, and you can even mix and customize procedures to create your own unique size and shape.

How long does recovery take?

Recovery is a step-by-step process. According to Dr. Derek Ford, who specializes in plastic surgery and breast augmentation in Toronto, you can be back on your feet and moving around the same day and back to most types of work in about a week. You’ll need to stay away from heavy lifting for a few more weeks. Your surgeon will clear you for more activities at your follow-up appointments and will give you specific instructions to follow so you can be totally back to normal ASAP.

What will the results be after?

Practices like Dr. Ford’s now offer 3D previews that can show you an in-depth look at what your results may be so you can get a feel for your new look before you commit. It takes some of the guesswork out of your decision and will give you a glimpse into what your post-surgery body will be.

What is life after surgery like?

Once you’re recuperated, you get to go forward with a new bod and new and improved sense of confidence. A study by the American Society of Plastic Surgeons showed a “very large” improvement of quality of life after breast augmentation. No regrets there.

If you’re one of many moms out there wondering if a breast augmentation makes sense in your life, know you’re not alone. With so many options and new ways to get back on your feet more quickly than ever, it’s definitely possible to fit into your busy mommy life. 

We all deserve to love the bodies we’re in. If plastic surgery can help you reach your body confidence goals, it’s a beautiful thing.