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Happy New Year! 2023 Goals

Happy New Year my wonderful friends! I am very happy that it is 2023. Do you have goals for this year? I always like to write down some goals to help direct my life in a way. Ultimately I know that you can’t really plan what God and life has in store but I can definitely make goals and try to accomplish them. I always make a reading goal. I would like to read at least 12 books in 2023. I would like to also find a job. I’ve been a stay home mom for a long time and would like to work again. It’s very challenging to find work. Especially when they ask you “Do you have any references?” I’m like: “would you like a letter from my children?

Youtube and blog ads don’t make that much for me. I would love to do some sponsored posts this year. That would be a lot of fun for me. I would love to draw and paint more this year and write another poetry book. My first poetry book TRUTH was written during my cancer journey and it is very emotional and deep. I would like to explore different writing styles in the next poetry book maybe with photography and drawings.

I would like to learn how to drive and get my driving licence. I know I’ve been saying this for ever but I believe everything has a the right timing. You can’t force things unless you are ready and when I am ready I will go for it.

I would like to up my video content for YouTube. It’s a lot of work. People don’t realize but the editing process is a lot of work. I would like to get more creative with my videos. I created a poll in the community section on my channel asking my lovely viewers what they would like to see and 100% said Vlogs. So I would like to continue making more vlogs this year.

I also would like to journal more, spend less time on my phone, explore the island more and try something new this year.

Thank you for reading my blog post,

Happy New Year my friends!

Wishing you all the best!

Maria

2022 Goals

Dear January,

You are so cold and yet so beautiful

Thank you for your beauty

I look out my window and see the white snow all around

The sun reaches in our home and hits the walls with radiance and warmth

even if its for a short while I thank you

Branches are dark and shadows start moving as the Sun starts its journey.

In 2022 I would like to write more, create more artwork, make more videos to share.

I would like to get more active, I would like to learn something new like knitting or sewing,

I would like to learn how to drive, I would like to read more books and my goal on Goodreads is set to 25 books for 2022.

Here is a poem from my Poetry Book that is available on Lulu.com have a look if you like.

Flakes Of Magic

The sunlight in the early morning shines across the snowy 

land creating magical light.

My eyes capture the glittery light flakes of magic.

I hold sacred that joyous happy feeling in my heart,

A soulful memory full of love, within, there is gratitude.

-Maria Medeiros

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Thank you all for your love and support.

Thank you for commenting, sharing and reaching out to me. Thank you for all your kindness. I appreciate it. Currently I am working on a Free Digital Download for a stationary, a wallpaper and a January Mood Board. If you have any ideas of anything else you would like let me know. I really enjoy making them on CANVA.

Have a lovely day my friends and see you soon with a new post.

Love,

Maria

My Cancer Journey Chemo and Side Effects

I haven’t written since chemotherapy one. I have finished four rounds of chemo and I have documented my journey on Youtube. YOUTUBE #MYCANCERJOURNEY It has been the hardest thing that I’ve had to go through in my life. Going through chemo is not just feeling a little sick. It is very physically and mentally challenging. I was told in the beginning that I might get some side effects. Well I got all the side effects! The only one I didn’t get is vomiting. Everything else from head to toe is still rolling in as I’m writing this.

From head to toe: Insomnia, migraines, head aches, hair loss, muscle twitches, eye leaking tears, nose leaking, nose sores, extreme dry skin, jaw pain, teeth pain, dry mouth, no taste, shoulder and neck pain, nausea, stomach pain, diarrhea, tiredness, loss of appetite, leg pain, muscle pain, bone pain, nail frailty, numbing of fingertips and toes, mental stress, chemo brain/fog brain, depression and no patience at all. Also very emotional.

I still have a year of medication to complete and radiation as well. At this point in my journey I am feeling stressed and overwhelmed and I need time to heal. I need more positivity and positive visualization. I need to start my yoga again and even meditation. I have so many questions floating in my head. I sometimes still can’t believe I have Cancer. That it can come back. I now feel stressed about food intake as well. I then get bombarded with people leaving me comments like don’t eat meat, sweets, white pasta, white bread, no potatoes, no dairy and no juice. It’s very overwhelming and stressful. I do understand their concerns but it feels like so much right now. I don’t even know where to start.

I will ask my doctor and oncologist all these questions and I’m thinking of getting involved in a small support group. I also need to get back into doing more artwork. Artwork really helps.

I want to thank you all your love, positivity and support. Thank you for all your prayers and love. I’m truly grateful. Your support has given me so much strength and hope. Thank you. As I continue this road of healing I look forward to sharing my journey with you. I would also like to say sorry if I repeat my self. I still have chemo brain and my eyes and concentration don’t work as well at the moment. Thank you and lots of love and positivity! God Bless!

@bestdayblogger

My Cancer Journey

I really don’t know how to start this post. Sometimes it feels like I’m stuck in the twilight zone. It feels very surreal.

A year ago I found a lump on my breast and I thought it was a cyst. It was on the surface. I waited a little to see if it would go away. It didn’t and I decided to go to the doctor. She sent me to get a mammogram and they said that I should do a biopsy. The biopsy was so annoying by the way. Waiting for results can take years off of you. It’s so stressful. Biopsy results showed that it is cancer and that it is HER2 positive.

HER2 positive is:

“HER2-positive breast cancer is a breast cancer that tests positive for a protein called human epidermal growth factor receptor 2 (HER2). This protein promotes the growth of cancer cells. In about 1 of every 5 breast cancers, the cancer cells have extra copies of the gene that makes the HER2 protein”

This was so shocking to me. I never in a million years pictured my self going through this. I mean no one does. I felt like I was in a black hole when I first found out.

My breast surgeon sent me to do all the testing to make sure that it hadn’t spread anywhere in the body. I did it all. CT scan and MRI are the worst tests. For me personally. Uncomfortable tests. At this time it felt like I was lost in a vortex.

All the tests came back good. Thank God and I had the cancer lump removed. I did not remove the breast just the lump. I also had lymph nodes checked out because cancer can spread to the lymph nodes under your armpit. Thank goodness it hasn’t.

I am now in a place where I’m ready to battle rather in a place of loss and confusion. I had to switch my mind set. I need to feel like I’m in control and the only way I can do this is to be optimistic, positive and determined. I need to be strong for my children and husband whom I love so much. I’m so grateful for everything in life.

So my treatments begin next week. I start chemotherapy, followed by radiation and hormone therapy. The entire process should be completed in a year and I also have to continue taking a prescription that puts me into menopause for five years or longer.

I also have to do a heart echo after each chemo because the medication can have an effect on the heart. This is scary but I’m working out on my treadmill to keep my heart in good shape.

I’m documenting my journey through videos because I want to share my story with others and I want to help others that are going through this as well.

Yesterday I had my PICC line put in and next week I will be ready to do my first chemotherapy. The first chemo takes 4 hours. I definitely need to bring a bag with me full of essential things. I will share #mycancerjourney on my YouTube channel.

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So this is what’s been happening in my life. It also sucks that we are in lockdown 3 in Toronto and I can’t bring anyone with me during my chemo. But I’ll be ok. I’m strong.

In April I celebrated my 45th Birthday. I don’t feel 45. I feel like I’m 30. 🎉

We have a kitten and his name is Mr. Ziggy He’s a blue bi-colour Ragdoll. He is only well behaved when he is sleeping. 😂
Hi I’m at the hospital doing a heart echo. All went well and I’m ready for my 1st chemo treatment.

I would like to say thank you 🙏 for all the online support and love that I’ve been receiving. It really brings me strength and gives me so much hope so thank you. I’m so grateful for all of you. God bless!