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My Cancer Journey
I really don’t know how to start this post. Sometimes it feels like I’m stuck in the twilight zone. It feels very surreal.
A year ago I found a lump on my breast and I thought it was a cyst. It was on the surface. I waited a little to see if it would go away. It didn’t and I decided to go to the doctor. She sent me to get a mammogram and they said that I should do a biopsy. The biopsy was so annoying by the way. Waiting for results can take years off of you. It’s so stressful. Biopsy results showed that it is cancer and that it is HER2 positive.
HER2 positive is:
“HER2-positive breast cancer is a breast cancer that tests positive for a protein called human epidermal growth factor receptor 2 (HER2). This protein promotes the growth of cancer cells. In about 1 of every 5 breast cancers, the cancer cells have extra copies of the gene that makes the HER2 protein”
This was so shocking to me. I never in a million years pictured my self going through this. I mean no one does. I felt like I was in a black hole when I first found out.
My breast surgeon sent me to do all the testing to make sure that it hadn’t spread anywhere in the body. I did it all. CT scan and MRI are the worst tests. For me personally. Uncomfortable tests. At this time it felt like I was lost in a vortex.
All the tests came back good. Thank God and I had the cancer lump removed. I did not remove the breast just the lump. I also had lymph nodes checked out because cancer can spread to the lymph nodes under your armpit. Thank goodness it hasn’t.
I am now in a place where I’m ready to battle rather in a place of loss and confusion. I had to switch my mind set. I need to feel like I’m in control and the only way I can do this is to be optimistic, positive and determined. I need to be strong for my children and husband whom I love so much. I’m so grateful for everything in life.
So my treatments begin next week. I start chemotherapy, followed by radiation and hormone therapy. The entire process should be completed in a year and I also have to continue taking a prescription that puts me into menopause for five years or longer.
I also have to do a heart echo after each chemo because the medication can have an effect on the heart. This is scary but I’m working out on my treadmill to keep my heart in good shape.
I’m documenting my journey through videos because I want to share my story with others and I want to help others that are going through this as well.
Yesterday I had my PICC line put in and next week I will be ready to do my first chemotherapy. The first chemo takes 4 hours. I definitely need to bring a bag with me full of essential things. I will share #mycancerjourney on my YouTube channel.
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So this is what’s been happening in my life. It also sucks that we are in lockdown 3 in Toronto and I can’t bring anyone with me during my chemo. But I’ll be ok. I’m strong.
In April I celebrated my 45th Birthday. I don’t feel 45. I feel like I’m 30. 🎉
I would like to say thank you 🙏 for all the online support and love that I’ve been receiving. It really brings me strength and gives me so much hope so thank you. I’m so grateful for all of you. God bless!
I poured a lot of creativity into the pages of my sketchbooks and notebooks. I avoided any physical exercise. I know I said I would do yoga but I’m not into it. Just not feeling motivated. As we move into February the sun helps brighten my spirit.
I’ve been writing poetry. I’ve been sharing my poems on IG. @bestdayblogger because I don’t have my computer to upload and edit my vlogs as much I’m spending time on Instagram Reels and IGTV. This year is my first time using those features. It’s fun.
I created a video for my Art Book Flip Trough.
I created a video of my tea collection. I’ve been into a lot of tea drinking lately.
Reading art and writing is how I’ve been spending my creative time. The rest of the time I’m doing laundry, washing dishes and cooking. It gets dark at 5:30 and I hate it. I feel tired and want to sleep a lot but can’t.
Currently reading Alice Hoffman’s Magic Lessons.
I am really enjoying this book.
Art in my Moleskine Artbook. I completed my first book. I didn’t use both sides of the pages.
As for beauty I haven’t put any makeup on. I only use skincare products. Clarins, Pixi Beauty Skincare and Avon Skincare. I will be doing a full skincare winter routine post soon.
That is all for this month. Art, writing, tea drinking and reading. Taking care of the house chores and cooking. Feeding, bathing and taking care of my girls. Taking care of my self also.
I watched a Netflix movie in January. I LOVED IT. It is called Penguin Bloom with Naomi Watts. Based on a true story. It was amazing! You must watch it.
This month’s favourite snacks are chocolate and popcorn. 🍿
I’m also loving my new fountain pen. It’s really beautiful. I received this as a Christmas gift from my wonderful husband. I also completed my Tea Pigs advent calendar and loved opening a tea everyday. It was amazing trying different flavours of teas. Tea Pigs is great!
So goodbye January 2021! I enjoyed each moment and cried many nights missing my father and thinking about him. I had a few sleepless nights. Puffy eyes and bags under my eyes. It is hard. Flashbacks from the final hours with my father come to me all the time and I just start crying. I know the good memories will float above the sad ones one day. Until then I light my candle everyday and pray.
I hope you are all well my friends. Take good care of your selves and your family during these hard times. Spend your time doing things you love and things that bring you joy.
Thank you all and have a beautiful weekend.
Much love and positivity.
Happy New Year! 2021 Thank you!
Happy New Year my friends! I hope you are all well. Have you made any resolutions for this year? I’ve made a bucket list for 2021 but I’m not putting pressure on my self. I do have a few words that I’ve chosen to guide me through the year and one is CREATE the second one is SIMPLE and the third one I’m still working on. 😝 I will let you know when I figure it out. Sometimes words appear with time.
I’m looking forward to Monday because I’m going to venture into more yoga. I hope I have the strength to commit to the classes and also to complete the classes. Last year I completed 2 rounds of 30 Days of Yoga and then when I bent down to pick something up I hurt my back on the right side and I haven’t done yoga since that day. So I pray that I can do it.
I’ve started writing, journaling and I also plan to read more this year. I would like to learn more this year as well. I’m excited and hopeful. I feel that we have to be hopeful and think positive.
I wanted to share a few things that I kindly won on IG in December and that I’ve been enjoying. Before I do did you read my review for Frankenstein by Mary Shelley? Find out what I think about the book here: REVIEW.
First I would like to say thank you for all your messages, notes, cards, flowers and gifts in my father’s memory. I appreciate how you are all helping me through this emotional time. Thank you for reaching out and giving me so much love. I’m so grateful for all your prayers and friendship.
I would like to say thank you to the Toronto Star for the tweet on Twitter.
I would like to thank you all my friends for my top nine on Instagram. It really showcases who I am and also what you like to see. Yoga, art and nature. Oh yes and flowers in my kitchen. 🙂 Thank you so much for being there for me and being so supportive. I’m truly grateful. @bestdayblogger
Thank you to
FOXY ORIGINALS My favourite face masks and lovely jewelry
Callia Flowers Beautiful flowers!
Beretta Farms *Gift Certificate. It was an amazing experience shopping and also eating the food my family ordered. The taste is amazing! Thank you also for the A&W gift card! So amazing! I am so grateful.
Thank you so much Julie for the lovely card and the tea towel is so cute! It’s perfect! “ARTIST AT WORK” I love it so much! I love the decal “Today is a good day”. I’m going to put that on my mirror. I really love what you wrote and I’m truly grateful for your friendship. Thank you.
Thank you all for your cards, messages and comments. I appreciate it so much!
Have a lovely weekend and I will see you over on my Instagram account and on my Youtube Channel as well. Much love and happiness! God Bless!
Weekly Vlog | Self Care, Mom Chat and Artwork
I hope you are well my friends. I hope you take good care of your self and do some self care. You are important! Thank you all for your comments and support. I appreciate it so much. Thank you for subscribing to my Youtube Channel. It means so much to me. Have a lovely Sunday…
Weekly Vlog | Haul, Hot Chocolate & Biopsy
Hello friends! Hope all is well. I hope March is treating you well. I’ve been busy with keeping the house clean, working out and trying to participate with #The100DayProject. I’ve been trying not to stress for the Biopsy results which I will get next week. Thank you all for following and commenting on my Youtube…
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Your beauty surrounded us. The weather was so beautiful and we made some lovely at home memories. The garden is growing nicely.
Sun rays through my hair and face. Summer warmth, heat embrace. I watered the garden and ate delicious raspberries. I heard sounds all around me, neighbours, cars, trees, birds. It brings me a little joy and I feel a little normal.
Nature makes me feel safe. Summer days come and go. Birds are chirping and singing hello. I’m surrounded by your energy, embraced by your calmness and feel your love. I seek positivity and joy in life’s simplicities. The daily chores that bring me joy even in the smallest ways. One step at a time during these challenging times.
Outside in the garden I saw various birds, cardinals, robins and some squirrels. Animals visit our home to say hello. Bunnies, foxes and racoons. Butterflies fly around and buzzing bees around my ears. You are glorious and majestic my sweet July. I am for ever grateful for your love. I hear cicadas loud and clear. Also neighbours all around. Kids playing and spending time together. There’s a deep happiness and a deep sadness that fills my heart. I feel its so busy in this city, so much noice from the cars. July you rarely brough rain. A few times only and the earth became so happy yet again.
Thank you so much to Pixi Beauty for the lovely *Gifted items. *Not sponsored.
Thank you so much for watching my video and reading my blog.
Much love and happiness.
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